Loving our contradictions & complexity is the key to inner harmony  

I came across this piece I wrote a couple years ago after reading about how immigrants in detention camps were being treated in the United States. No matter what might trigger a similar reaction today after, say, watching the news, holding an open heart for ourselves is still the key. 

Such a deep sadness…

written on Wed 30 May 2018

Such a deep sadness is coursing through my veins right now. It’s pulsing and swirling and pushing itself through me aggressively, with force. I can feel it. And I am so sad. So very, deeply sad at the horrors that we humans can inflict on each other.

And I know that I am a part of this too. That I hold in my hands such pure essence of holy innocence. A stillness. A point of such beauty. And then in the other hand I also hold such pain, such critical judging voices condemning others for this or that infraction of some rules I’ve learned or made up for myself.

And it all becomes a huge blur of confusion and pain and such anger thrust outward at the others who would treat their sisters and brothers with such disdain, such cruelty, such terror, such inhumanity.

And I am lost in the swirling currents of good and bad and not knowing how to negotiate, how to think of it all…

Just don’t watch the news…

Give money to causes…

Pray…

Meditate…

And I slowly come back to the stillness of the center point of love. The love covers and upholds both and it’s not an either / or thing. It’s a both / and.

I am both, and I am one and then the other at times.

And I am so so sad.

And so so angry.

And so so terrified.

And so so thinking that I do not know what to do.

And then I come back to the heart space.

The still point at the center.

And I can hold both now. I can open myself wide. So wide that I can encompass the All That Is. Knowing that I am indeed the All That Is as well. I am not something outside of it. I have it all right inside of me too and that knowing IS the terror, the fear, the sadness. And ultimately, the LOVE that is ALL.

Blessed Be.

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